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Finally it was Friday. I pushed my way through the hallway to get to lunch where I could talk to Jack and Rian, the only two in the band I had lunch with. I dropped my backpack at our table, falling into my usual seat.

“You look stressed,” Rian noted, shoving pizza into his mouth.
“Just a lot,” I sighed.
“What’s wrong?” Jack asked, food flying from his mouth.

I scrunched up my nose, flicking the bit of chewed food off my arm.

“Gross,” I said pointedly. “And I… I don’t know if I can tell you.”
“What? You tell us everything!” Rian exclaimed.
“Yeah, but this-“
“I guess we’re not friends,” Jack huffed, crossing his arms and sticking his nose in the air.

I rolled my eyes and popped a French fry into my mouth.

“So what’s this thing that you don’t wanna tell us?” Rian asked eagerly.

I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

“I… No, I can’t do it. I’ll call you guys later,” I got up and left the table, heading to the bathroom.

I set my bag down and walked over to the mirror. I fixed my hair and checked my makeup, reapplying it when needed. Eventually the bell rang and I headed to AP Lit. Zack was already in his seat and I slid into mine next to him.

“What’s up, kid?” he asked concerned.
“I have to break up with him,” I mumbled, my hands covering my face. Unfortunately Zack understood what I said.
“What?”
“I really, really don’t want to, but you’ll understand when… when tour starts.”
“Tell me n-“
“Silence, Mr. Merrick. Class has started,” the teacher said sternly, glaring over at us.

Zack rolled his eyes and turned to face the front of the room again.

As soon as the bell rang, I slung my bag over my shoulder and raced out of school. Zack caught my arm and pressed me lightly against a wall around the corner from where the guys were waiting for us.

“Tell me now,” he said, the tone of his voice was terrifying.

Once I remembered that it was only Zack that was holding me hostage, I calmed down and my brain started working again. Of course I could tell Zack.

“Fine, but not right this moment. Just come over,” I begged with my eyes.
“Fine.”

We walked over and joined the other guys in the car.

“One more week, then we’re on the road!” Alex said happily, his arm going around my shoulder and pulling me against him.
“Yeah,” I smiled half-heartedly.

When we reached my house, Zack and I got out of the car. I waved ‘bye to everyone and then we walked inside. He followed me into the kitchen, grabbed a bag of chips, and then we went up to my room. We sat down on my bed and turned to face each other.

“Why?” he whined.
“Swear you won’t tell?”
“Swear,” he held out his pinky. I took it in mine and squeezed tight.
“The singer of the other band… He’s my ex boyfriend, the one I left for Alex.”

Zack dropped the bag of chips, his pinky falling out of mine, his eyes widening.

“What?” his eyebrows were raised incredibly high.
“Yeah.”
“So, what, are you just gonna get with him on tour, then get back with Alex when it’s over?”
“No, of course not- Well, is it that awful?” my voice changed from outraged to guilt in two seconds.
“Just… do what you want,” Zack said, getting up and leaving.

I closed my eyes, taking deep breaths.

“What was that all about?” Paul asked. I felt him sit down next to me.
“I told him what I had to do.”
“He didn’t take it so well.”
“Comforting.”

I got up and started walking out of my room.

“Where’re you going?”
“Alex’s,” I said solemnly, leaving without another word.

I parked my car in the driveway and rang the doorbell. Alex opened it and greeted me with a long kiss.

“Hey, baby,” he smiled, taking my hand and pulling me inside. I plastered a fake smile to my face and followed him.
“Alex, I’m uh, not planning to stay long,” I said.
“Oh,” his face fell and he stopped in his tracks, turning to look at me.
“Alex, I love you so much,” I began, tears already forming in the corners of my eyes.
“Then why are you doing this?” his voice was soft.
“Because the tour… I just feel like it’ll be easier if we’re…”
“Don’t, please.”
“Alex, it’s over… for now, anyway.”

I turned and left, wiping the tears from my cheeks as I went.
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Don't worry, it just keeps getting better.
So I know this was short, but I have to go somewhere soon, so I won't be able to post again.
But it's like, a 90% possibility that I'll post tomorrow. 
And don't hate me for doing that, I promise it's gonna be worth it. :]

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